[jinrenhe]

I guess ppl cheong this colorful world of commercial sex for a variety of reasons. Beside the obvious one to release urge, some do it out of loneliness, for warmth & company of a woman, some out of pure fun & thrill seeking & some are looking for the elusive GF feelin...

Aft cheong for slightly more than 3 yrs, I reflect that i usually do it whenever I am depressed &/or stressed... think it all started one evening 3 years bac when i tried my 1st paid sex partner--- a beautiful PRC streetwalker. I realised how all my worries & unhappiness wld evaporated during the 30 min when i am indulging in such carnal pleasure

Slowly i explored many other channels & tried everythk frm HC, Cat 150 to local FL... Now it's like becomming a habit, a way of temporary escapism..

I dun know if i'm considered a sex addict... but lately i've been contemplating to quit. I realized too that when life is goin well, it's easy to resist the urge. It's only when i am feelin down, feelin abandoned that i'll have the "Fuck it... i'm gona enjoy myself tonite since life is so unhappy" feeling...

I wonder if anyone out there shares the same sentiments? Also, i wld be appreciative if any bro who has successfully retire can share some advices on how to quit..

Sorry for this long, depressive part... think i'm sufferin frm some kinda of mood disorder haha..